I haven’t been on here as much, I’ve been working full days for the past 2 weeks. last weekend was nice because my family and I made a trip to San Carlos, Mexico, we watched the boxing match, soccer game and went to the beach, ate some amazing food, went on an hour long boat ride, it was lovely. It’s nice to travel and get out of town for a bit, then I worked all last week for many more hours than my usual and got a pretty sweet check, which I then used to make a payment on a credit card I have, I did splurge and treat myself to some new records, and I took my family out to eat. Im really bad with my money, I made 500 in the past 2 weeks, which is really really really good,hence why I haven’t quit, even though this job drives me mad and I hate myself cause its not what I really want to be doing with my life but its good money if I were smart enough to save it and why I stay, but yeah I think im going to keep at it for a bit, I mean I’ve been there nanny for 6 months now and although they really are taking advantage of me and cheating me out of hours and gas money, right now im taking it. I’ve said it before, there are a lot of people who are filthy rich, like those who live in snobsdale that will pay $15 an hour to watch there kid that will provide me with a car so I dont have to use my own but it just seems like a lot to either move out there or drive there everyday from where I live, I know it can be done but I think ill stay will this family for a bit more. Its just kind of a pain in the ass, I love kids don’t get me wrong, I started babysitting kids from the age of 10 probably even younger, im good with kids, baby’s, toddler’s, kids, I practically raised my neice and nephew, I know how to treat them and im good with them, but its just not what I want to be doing for the rest of my life, these kids I watch are a lot to handle sometimes, both boys, who fight, and when they do they get really aggressive, and they are both incredibly smart and there parents are strict and stern with them but they can get really irritating, the little one needs to be fed like a baby, he’s 8, I’ve babysit babys who dont even like to be fed, he’s a lot to handle for the most part because although his older brother eggs him on and pushes his buttons he is more mature at times 10, he’s become kinda disrespectful now, but that might just be him becoming a pre teen who knows. But now im rambling on. I think I’ll stick with this and see how it goes.
Dark World (2012)
im cute like wtf pay attention to me
I just want someone who will kiss me when I’m mad and lets me cry in front of them and buys me pizza and watches scary movies with me and holds my hand real tight even if it’s sweaty and thinks I’m beautiful no matter what I look like and lets me steal their sweaters so I can sleep with their smell on my skin and who laughs at the same things I do and just never lets me go, no matter how hard I try to push them away.
I Envy Your Apathy // Tigers Jaw
Too good, I keep playing this over and over.