Hey so if we have a mutual follow goin on, feel free to ask for my
- cellular number
- snapchat
- skype
- facetime
- first born
you know, anything you want
(Source: jo--harvelle)
it’s late, i’m just thinking about life and how indeciesive i am and on where the hell i’m going with it, i have my ged now, passed it, we’re good, applied at ulta, thought i was going to get it, i’m in there all the time, they know me i’m a familiar face, but since then i’m scared to go back and they haven’t called. sure it’s only been a week and a half but i’m me and i freak over anything. the lady from beauty school keeps calling me, as much as i loved the school and it’s close and it’s a short amount of time to have a career and certificate I just don’t know if it’s what i really want, I enjoy makeup, I enjoy doing myself up and looking nice but is it really what I want to do, its not a makeup artist it’s more of the facial, waxing, aesthetician and just a little bit of makeup, and it’s costly, thats what makes me cringe the most, ofcourse whatever i want to do my parents will support and help me but I’m just scared because I don’t know if this is what I really want.
photography has made me little to no money and I don’t care, I do it because i love it, I get in these moods where i get depressed and discouraged because I’ve been doing this for a long time and I feel like i’ve gotten nowhere, I stop for a while and jump back into it, I want to jump back in, what else have i got going on, i’m not with a publication anymore, i’m not interning for the label, i’m just not shooting much and it’s not fair because i love it, i love shows, i love music, i love the promotion side, i love the crews behind it, i love capturing that element of the show, i want to get into it, i don’t feel like i’m part of the industry, i feel like i know the scene but i’m not in it as much as i’d like to. fuck all these magazines and publications, radios, sites turning me away or not giving me a chance. I want to help you and i’m going to keep tiring until you don’t say no. I need to find my niche, i want to make some friends that stick around.
the weekend ended well
made some money and also spent a lot but that’s alright i guess.
lydia is next week, i dont have a ticket yet or a ride or friends to go with. im not missing it though. i don’t think any other band means more to me than them, they helped me through the hardest times in my life where i just felt like ending it all but with there music comes a new chapter in my life as well, i feel better, still uncertain of the future but better than i had before. i just want to watch my favorite band. i just wish i had a friend ya know it sucks to be alone.
